It's been so long

Remember when this blog was just for quotes? Or when it evolved into a spot to put funny articles and photos? I do. But somehow all of my blogs turn into the same sad story. I think I was meant to write depressing drivel. Too bad there isn't really a market for it. People want witty and satirical, not pathetic post-teenage angst.

It's hard to remember the time, over a year ago now, when I was sadder than I am now. This is before my diagnosis with clinical depression and before I was prescribed antidepressants to help regulate my moods. If this is me happier, I feel really bad for the me that existed before. I guess feeling bad for the old me is counter productive to feeling better as a depressive.

There's a short dialogue from the movie Closer that pretty much sums up what I am thinking.
"Everyone wants to be happy."
"Depressives don't. They want to be unhappy to confirm they're depressed. If they were happy, they couldn't be depressed anymore. They'd have to go into the real world and live. Which can be depressing."
I really hope I don't live like that.